Growing up, I was constantly caught in limbo. My weight was just another contradiction to my being. I was chubby — not fat enough to be able to complain with the other overweight girls, and definitely not skinny enough to do the same with the thin ones. But I do wish we could clear up a few things about being chubby, starting with the definition itself. Then, I went onto Urban Dictionary.
Being treated as the "fat friend" almost convinced me that I'd never find real friendship
Don't Hate Yourself Because You Are Fat | Psychology Today
The teen years come with all sorts of changes, so it's normal to face some emotional ups and downs. If a person is struggling with extra weight, it may add to these emotions. Of course, not everyone who is overweight is worried or upset about it. Lots of us know confident, happy people who are overweight — and thin, fit people who are insecure.
How does someone as fat as you have so much confidence? Where do you get your great self-esteem? Why wouldn't I be confident?
My childhood pediatrician promised my concerned mother that my baby fat would soon melt off into the softer curves of puberty, but the development of my hips and breasts only created more places for fat to settle. She was bullied as a child because of her weight, and she knew better than anyone what a target my size could make me. Still, between trying to blend in and regularly hiding in the bathroom during lunch, I managed to become friendly with a few girls and finally found a group to call my own. The girls I became friends with were very different from me.